more waiting

This has been a hard week for me, we were so excited to hear some good news from Ethiopia on Monday but we heard nothing. Tuesday I sent an email to Hope Ethiopia (the agency in Ethiopia where Liam is living) to ask if his birth mother was able to make it to the interview and how he is doing. The response: "Tamirat (Liam) is doing great! The birth mother interview is scheduled for Sept. 19." no explanation, no sorry we didn't tell you anything ever.....I am getting more and more frustrated everyday, I know my crazy hormones have something to do with this but it is killing me not know what is going to happen. It has been one horrible waiting game all year. Now it is even harder because the 19th puts me at 23 weeks in my pregnancy, I am getting closer and closer to my third trimester which should be an exciting thing but for me it is closer and closer to not being able to travel to get my son. I will have to ask my doctor next week how long I will be able to travel and of course when flying internationally there are more strict guidelines for pregnant women so I will have to get their approval also once I am so many weeks along, not sure about their time frame yet. Plus I also really do not want to deliver my baby on an airplane or in an Ethiopian hospital :) I think everyone can understand that. I have just been feeling pretty down this week and wish I didn't have to talk about it sometimes but I know everyone is anxious to hear the "good" news when we finally get it.
Today I got an email from another lady who is also adopting and was in Ethiopia for court while we were. She has also been through the waiting game with us, she had spoke to the US Embassy via email and they told her that Hope Ethiopia had NEVER contacted them to set up an interview for the birth mother. Why then did they tell us we had one on Monday and why did they tell me there is one on the 19th??? I have no idea what is going on and neither does our agent here in the US. We also sent an email to the Embassy to see if we actually have an interview scheduled for 9/19 we wont hear back until probably Tuesday or Wednesday because of Labor Day. I really hope it is positive news.

Miss Raegan is doing great though, she is moving more and more everyday! It is so exciting! She refuses to move for Josh :) she will be kicking like crazy and he touches my belly then nothing.....he moves his hand she kicks some more hahaha. Its too cute but I think he is a little disappointed. I have an appointment next week and hopefully we will be able to confirm that Raegan is in fact a girl since she was being a little difficult last time.
I am blown away by how blessed we have been this year and how much has happened! God is so good and I know that everything works to the good for those who love the Lord! We just have to be patient and wait on His timing not our own. Sorry this was so long, I just need to vent sometimes. We still have NO regrets other than possibly our choice of agencies, but I feel God led us to this agency for this child, he will fit in perfectly in our crazy little family.

Please keep our friends the Vance family in your prayers, this week they lost their newborn daughter. I cannot even imagine what they are going through right now but I am sure they could use all the prayer they can get.