blessed

Not a lot of people get the opportunity to combine their pregnancy blog and their adoption blog :) It is a little confusing: "hows the baby?" ....which one hahaha. We have been very blessed! I feel like my emotions are on high alert right now, I guess those are the hormones talking but I have been stressed out to the max this week over everything. Even the little things like what am I going to wear today almost push me over the edge when ummm choices choices my t shirt or Josh's t shirt :) I am eventually going to have to buy bigger shirts I guess. I am so very thankful for my church and the people that I have met there. I was given several pairs of maternity pants by one member who got them from a friend, its great to not have to worry about spending money on clothes right now when there are so many expenses piling up.

(I hope this makes sense, I am having a little trouble keeping my mind on one track for too long right now, I am not complaining I am simply trying to point out how God has provided for us and how my eyes have been open.)

God is teaching me so much right now. I have never had to experience a lot of debt possibly because I was too broke to buy anything for most of my life. Josh and I have been very blessed with great jobs and a comfortable living until now. I think it is very funny how God works, just when we think we have it all together and are totally ready to start a family: we get transferred, we cant sell the condo, the renters move out of his house in KY,my renters moved out, we have to become renters, and 2 new babies :). He is in control and we have to rely on HIM not on ourselves . It is so hard to totally rely on God to take care of our needs and provide for us. But He has and He is and He will, I think we had gotten to comfortable relying on ourselves and He needed to remind us who is really the bread winner in this house.
~We love TX, we have met so many great people and have made so many great friends
~We have rented the house in KY and they are planning to buy it within a year
~the condo....the person who has been trying to buy it for months now is finally looking into a conventional loan instead of waiting on the VA, should close in 2 weeks
~My wonderful brother-in-law is going to look into helping us make the repairs on my trailer so we can rent it again, someone has been asking about it. Its impossible for us to work on it since its 1000 miles away.
~We have a great home in TX, good location and plenty of room, best part we don't have to worry about selling it or renting it when we are transferred woohoo! Plus the owners are super nice and very quick with any needed repairs.
~2 babies in about 4 months wow! I have learned the art of finding really great stuff at yard sales! Who knew lol

My point is, when we felt the most helpless God was in control! He also has a plan, which for those of you who know me well know that I always have a plan A,B,C and sometimes D. None of this was in my plan but look how it has just fallen into place, almost like He knows better than we do :) Everything works to the good of those who love the Lord, sometime He just needs to remind us to not get so confident.
Things are tough but we have learned that we can still make it and even still have fun on about 1/4th of the money we were used to which is amazing! Just think if we had been doing this all along we would have no debt. God has really opened my eyes over the past few weeks. 

Adoption is very expensive but we have no regrets whatsoever just to clarify. We have an amazing, beautiful, happy, healthy baby boy who deserves to have a mama and a daddy and after 2 years of waiting he will finally have one (soon I hope). I do not want to scare anyone away from adoption, there are many grants, loans, tax credits, and employee benefits out there to help cover the costs. It is very rewarding and most of our costs will be covered by the tax credit and the military benefit.
We are also so so so excited to have a newborn, this is totally new to us but we cannot wait to get our little family started. So happy that Liam will have someone to play with that is so close to his own age. I think it will help him adjust to have a little brother or sister to play with. ~Again I am not complaining and I am also not saying we will not be able to provide for our children just trying to point out how awesome God is.~